Friday, October 24, 2014

READ THIS FIRST! About me/Disclaimer


READ THIS FIRST! About me/Disclaimer

As with so many others, I am your typical, geeky, mostly-socially-functional homo sapiens sapiens.  As of this writing, 44.  Depending, of course, on your perspective with regard to age and how long we’ve existed; older if you count time since conception.  Hard to say when I was first self-aware.  But, at any rate, that’s me - rooting around in the muck that is our multiverse for new questions and the solutions to them.  Continuing to learn more about myself.  Leading others to an understanding of me, and, hopefully, a better understanding of something else.  Anything else.  Occasionally, even better, themselves.  Smacking a friend’s windshield with a paintball.  Or several.  You know how it is. 

Also as of this writing I am:
1/7,251,583,786

OK, now: 
1/7,267,165,236
1/7,269,176,665

So are you.  

For now, I write how I want.  I believe I have a fairly respectable command of this language but belief is relative.  I might’ve had a better vocabulary in grade school.  If the day comes where I see an opportunity (hopefully) to make a living at this in some form I will be forced to adapt, which is fine.  Good to be stretched on that medieval rack of others’ criticisms, as long as it pops a festering vertebra back into place. 

That said, my writing style is like my train of thought…all over the place, oft changing tracks, sometimes derailing completely into gravel, trees or maybe a river.  Sometimes off of a very high trestle or cliff but imagine the language you might come up with on the way down.  The higher the better?  I do try to clean up and organize, attempting to make myself as clear a read as possible but I will at times completely suck or not give a fuck.  Deal with it.  If you don’t wanna, suck it up and read it again anyway.  Try to put yourself in my shoes and reflect a bit on how difficult it has been for me to start writing in the first place.  Then I wholeheartedly urge you to write for yourself as well.  It can be massively therapeutic and you might even surprise yourself.  Let’s solve the world’s problems, or at a minimum throw some ideas around and keep the conversation going.  Tell a truth.  Tell a story.  Have some fun. 

I am opinionated.  I will piss you off.  Hell, I piss myself off.  I whine, cry, cuss, bitch, argue, froth and spit.  That said, I am usually very successful in being playful and maintaining my sense of humor.  Mirror, mirror, on the wall, who could give a gravity-defying bout of copulation.  Asshole.  Wipe that condescending grin off your face or I’ll bleach you clean.  But, you’re porous, and that could leave a residue…scratch that.  Or I could just do that and clean you again with something intended for that purpose.  That’ll learn ye.  Asshole.  No, I won’t punch you…that kind of unproductive violence has no merit whatsoever.  Besides, I’d cut my hand and have bad luck for seven years. 

The occasional delusion is what I allow myself when I am feeling scientisty or philosophery and believe I’ve struck a neat chord.  Not necessarily correct or in but I decent thought nonetheless, nonethemore.  Stewed in with other veggies of study, opinions, hopefully discussion, those delusions might become those of grandeur.  Heh… 

There’s a thought.  Imagine going a year without ever seeing your own face.  Even a week, for that matter.  Hmm. 

I could venture to say I intend to piss everyone off at times.  I know from vast personal experience that one of the best ways to learn, quickly, is to experience trauma, most of the time self-imposed; physical, emotional, psychological…trauma.  Physical insomuch as only to improve…I’m not saying making nice parallel lines in your forearm with a box knife is a good idea.  It isn’t.  So I might as well try to leave this place a weee bit better just by breaking things and seeing what is learned; what grows.  I’ve seen some fantastic things done with broken clay pots. 

I’d love it if someone considered my thoughts as something along the lines of an intellectual screwdriver in a power outlet.  For the jolt of electricity…not as a negative reinforcer that tells you not to come back, to be clear.  Hmm…I might need a better metaphor for that. 

Along those lines, I also allow myself to have feelings and show them to myself.  As I age I tend to care less about who witnesses any of my doings should they be proximal during an episode, not unlike many women breastfeeding.  Feel free to suckle the teat of my public emotional outbursts, small or large.  That is perhaps misleading…I am never prone to ‘in-the-street’ public outbursts, usually just in private writing; this here is the manifestation of the idea of getting oneself out there.  Ability to like never before, so we might as well. 

On that note, I’ve always said I don't care what you say or do - be yourself.  It is how I choose to react to you being you that matters.  Maybe I will be known for that quote someday.  Probably not, someone has likely already said exactly that.  But then, with billions having lived and living, there are few original ideas, it is just luck of the draw as to who gets the credit.  I do believe strongly in giving credit where it is due. 

pitch ·AH·chee  Just in case you were wondering.  ;o) 

Keep in mind I am fully aware all people exhibit a multitude of possible personality traits.  If I say something is representative of part of me, I am not trying to say I’m the only one, I am just telling you about the ingredients which make up my own personal recipe of craziness.  ;o)

Generalist.  Here’s a note I left myself to write something about being a generalist.  While I don’t immediately recollect wataf I was thinking at the time I might come back to it later.  Too many options. 

As with so many people, one of the things I am blessed with, cursed with, is seeing the global relationships between entities and ideas.  Immense lengths of dominos…beneficial, consequential, destructive.  I will tend to repeat myself and link to other articles with some frequency.  I’ve also been told attorneys like reading my writing as I usually have no trouble saying exactly what I mean, and very often repeating the exact same word many times if it is the best expletive .  If I am trying to be purposefully creative and not get some technical idea across, I’ll dig up a different synapse.  Or even open a thesaurus.  Thesaurus…Pleistocene parchment? 

Presence of libelous language?  I doubt it.  I am usually very frank in that everything I put out there is my own opinion, and I tend to write out everything in a doc on my puter first and sleep on things for a night or ninety before proofreading again and posting, so that should filter anything I might get sued for as a result of an impaired rant. 

Random Rant:  I left college because I found myself paying more for the access to the libraries than anything.  I didn’t need to attend some class to learn something, and it was upsettingly rare we’d have any kind of stimulating conversation in classes.  Maybe that was because my curriculum was almost all hardcore sciences, and at that time my professors frowned on debate.  They sure frowned on mine.  But…I still acquired quite a few years under my belt…I’d like to think that queued me up for the eventual billionaire’s success as several friends predicted but money more than sufficient to be secure was never a motivator.  Six figures was fine but wholly unrewarding, especially considering that the work I was doing wasn’t exactly conducive to a monumental volume of creativity.  Not as I tend to see it at any rate.  I had my outlets, but…yeah.  We’ve all been there.  At least there was ample opportunity for problem solving and helping people. 

In terms of survival and competition for resources, I tend to value my own life over yours.  I would expect that you would do the same with yourself but that is your prerogative.  I’ll get into the brain stem in another article.  Of course, I do attempt to adhere to this antiquated, socially-conscious idea of ‘sharing’, but who am I kidding.  All for me and one for me, right?  Anyway…there are obviously those whom I would give effortlessly my last heartbeat for, but that could easily be the subject of a completely different article.  And likely will be. 

Who I am, of course, is open to interpretation and opinion.  I will, again, tend to listen to and value my own opinion above yours but I’ll reserve that right.  Keep in mind I said specifically that I ‘tend’ to.  For now, anyway.  That is not to say foreign opinions of me won’t be looked at, as when you venture an honest opinion of me as a whole or in some fragment, I will not pay attention…quite the contrary.  I welcome all ideas as I do actually try to better myself in terms of individual organs, bones and connective tissue in addition to that funky nonsense that occurs seemingly, mostly, within this thick skull of mine. 

IF you read.  IF you aren’t someone who looks for TL;DR.  Lazy ass.  Although…in this day and age, I do the same thing myself.  I love being a lazy ass, I’m just working to bring it to a comfortable minimum.  Kettle, meet Pot.    




©Michael Pichahchy 2014

No comments:

Post a Comment